So you have discovered that your initial choice of care provider(s) isn’t right for you. Don’t sweat it! I’ve been there too.
Before I was even pregnant with my third baby I imagined my perfect birth. There wasn’t a lot of detail, I would labor at home and stay at home. I desired a long early labor phase with manageable contractions and a baby born shortly before dinner time. And then, after the baby was born, we would enjoy dinner at our own family dinner table, in the comfort of our home.